Inner Monologues Vs. Things I say Out Loud

“How are you?” “̶I̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶f̶i̶…̶.̶ ̶I̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶s̶t̶r̶u̶g̶g̶l̶i̶n̶g̶.̶ ̶C̶o̶n̶s̶t̶a̶n̶t̶l̶y̶ ̶s̶t̶r̶u̶g̶g̶l̶i̶n̶g̶.̶ ̶T̶o̶ ̶c̶o̶m̶p̶r̶e̶h̶e̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶c̶o̶n̶t̶r̶a̶d̶i̶c̶t̶i̶o̶n̶s̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶o̶w̶n̶ ̶h̶e̶a̶r̶t̶.̶ ̶T̶o̶ ̶a̶t̶o̶n̶e̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶t̶r̶e̶a̶s̶o̶n̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶o̶w̶n̶ ̶c̶h̶a̶r̶a̶c̶t̶e̶r̶.̶ ̶I̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶l̶y̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶m̶o̶r̶e̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶c̶o̶v̶e̶r̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶l̶i̶e̶s̶ ̶I̶’̶v̶e̶ ̶a̶l̶r̶e̶a̶d̶y̶ ̶l̶i̶v̶e̶d̶ ̶a̶n̶d̶ ̶t̶o̶l̶d̶.̶ ̶I̶’̶v̶e̶ ̶b̶e̶e̶n̶ ̶h̶i̶d̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶t̶h̶e̶ ̶d̶u̶n̶g̶e̶o̶n̶ ̶i̶n̶ ̶h̶o̶p̶e̶s̶ ̶o̶f̶ ̶b̶e̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶r̶e̶l̶i̶e̶v̶e̶d̶ ̶f̶r̶o̶m̶ ̶m̶y̶ ̶s̶i̶n̶s̶.̶ ̶I̶ […]

Love on Some Days

Some days, you will forget to pick love on her way from the Dentist’s appointment Some days, she will be upset about it Some days, you will make love bunk her French classes And instead of curling her mouth around syllables, clasping French vowels under the fold of her tongue She will grudgingly drag herself […]

I know we just met but here we are

I am I have too many hands and nothing to hold onto. I am I love long walks down a quiet street. I am you should talk more. I am no one listens to me. I am shut up and sit down. I am I have no friends. I am you are not good enough. […]

TV Dilemmas

There is only a single TV in my house But two remote controls One is fully functional While the other has buttons that have far long forgotten how to serve its purpose My mother uses the remote with a power button that can turn on and turn off the TV With buttons that turn up […]